dude, where's my zen.

January 15, 2012

The other day I woke up with a shooting pain behind both my shoulder blades. By the end of the day I was O.V.E.R. I.T. Achy, grumpy, tired and overwhelmed with trying to balance the day to day.

The daily grind is living up to it's name.

We have a few more weeks before monsieur and I are both back at work, with p going to daycare 4 days a week. M has a 10 week internship for uni in the first half of this year and we have no other way than for me to work. Cue mama guilt.
Up until now we have managed to have one of us at home with p all the time. She is attached at the hip to us and us to her.

Despite working and having no holiday together, the bills keep coming and some days I swear we are going around in a hamster cage trying to catch up on debt. Two steps forward...

and homesick. man alive, it has been too long since I have seen my family and friends and m, his and this makes a little hole that grows and grows daily.
In me, stress and worry manifest to physical symptoms. Headaches and back pain are the flavour de jour.

In the past, I committed myself to no pity parties in my life. To appreciate what I have, to enjoy each moment. But sometimes I guess you need to wallow. Otherwise you can't see the bright side when it comes back out.
Breathe. Let go. And hopefully tomorrow is a new day.
Any other advice for getting over a slump?
♡ ashley


  1. I do hope that, as you read this, you are feeling better.

    You are entitled to feel grumpy and tired - you are human after all!!

    Remember that you and your little family are doing the best you can.

    Take each day as it comes and each moment.

    All will work out fine.

  2. Oh ... I hope you are on the mend.
    I am a headache stress kinda gal and lets face it - it sucks!
    Breathe and letting go sounds like the perfect remedy.
    And if that doesn't work a glass of wine and a laugh with a friend!

  3. Oh darling, I can feel your pain in these words and I don't blame you one bit. It is such a heart wrenching ordeal to have to leave your bubs to go to work. But in saying that, it will all be ok. I promise. Children are very adaptable, far more than us adults. I know it isn't easy to relax, because I am a bit of a stress head too, but please try to take some time out for yourself each day... even if it's just half an hour to do something you love. For me, it's blogging, I think it keeps me sane actually.
    And always allow yourself to wallow for a while... tomorrow is definitely a new day :o) xo

  4. I hope tomorrow is a brighter day.

    When I'm in a slump I find planning something to look forward to. A picnic, a camping trip or a future holiday.

    I read somewhere the secret to happiness is having someone to love, something to do and something to look forward to.


  5. Oh lady, I think it's ok to say it's crap when things are crap. With the achy feelings from stress, try taking a good magnesium supplement. When I go off mine (and in times of stress), I really notice it in my neck and back, and when I get back on it, it's great relief for the pain. I really hope you start to feel less stressed once Piper starts daycare, and you'll see that everything will be ok. She might love it! Hang in there lady. Kellie xx

  6. You're photography always inspires me. I'm inspired to do a black and white shoot soon!!!



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